A List of Things That I Want To Be When I Grow Up

As many of my posts are, this is random and spontaneous as I lay here at 12:31 in the morning in darkness and think that this flurry of thoughts in my head could develop into an actual, thought-out blog post. Okay, that’s a bit far but to hell with it…you must be somewhat interested if you’re still reading!

I am an extremely indecisive person. I also have changed my goals and life plan about five times since I have come to college…that is A LOT guys. I do, however, like all of you, have those few dream jobs that only exist in fairy tales and tv series that I aspire to call my “career” in the future.

Do not hate me (I was going to say judge but some of these make me question my judgment myself) for this list… Alright, here is a list of my most desirable, improbable, and unattainable careers.

 

1. Samantha Jones (of SATC): Samantha is an amazing woman; she is independent, a maneater, and successfully runs her own PR agency. Who wouldn’t want to handle the PR for their beautiful model/actor boyfriend? And considering one of my degrees is in PR, it is probably a good thing that one of my dream jobs is somewhat fitting for my expertise…

2. Samantha Brown: For some reason NONE of my friends know who Samantha Brown is….she is my freaking role model. She had a show on The Travel Channel for years (I watched with my mom every Sunday way back when) where she travelled to cities across the globe and showed people what touristy (and non-touristy) things to do while there. I want to be paid to travel and eat and go to spas and have a tv show about me. So yeah…

3. Rachel Ray: I LOVE TO COOK. And Rachel Ray is awesome. I cook with a pretty free-spirited style like her. Again, a tv show for me. Hell yes. And it involves food.

4. Carrie Bradshaw: A writer with a closet full of shoes…sounds like my life already. She has great friends, amazing men, and apparently enough money from her once-a-week freelance article to afford countless pairs of Manolos and Louboutins (eh, it is a tv show and all). Mostly the writing thing…I do admire Candace Bushnell (since Carrie’s character is based on her own life) and would love to have her career development–if I can get into the journalism industry.

5. Photographer: Yes, anyone can look like a professional photographer nowadays thanks to Instagram, but I have always loved taking pictures. I don’t have a fancy camera (I just use my phone) and I take pictures of anything I find pretty–that sounds ridiculously girly & superficial, I know. I would love to travel and take photos for magazines or newspapers or just a blog that would make me famous. **cough cough**

6. Princess: Well, I don’t think I even need to explain this one. I want to be a princess and if Prince Harry proposed right now I would be the happiest girl in the world. Just saying.

7. Pug breeder: I love pugs. It would be messy and expensive but nothing makes my heart flutter like a widdle baby pug. This one isn’t necessarily a “career” but it could be a fun side project? Mostly so I don’t end up forever alone….always got dem pugs on my side. Hehe

8. Writer: Dream job. I mean, I would have to find things to write about….but that’s the easy part.

 

As always, thanks for reading my lovey fangirls. <3

Parks

There is something so humbling and freeing about sitting on a park bench in the fall. Just sitting. People watching. Chilly air. The sound of crisp leaves ruffling in the wind.

A park is mot beautiful in the fall. That is not my opinion, that is fact. The shades of red, yellow, green, brown, they collaborate to create this masterpiece of nature–a beauty that everything and everyone else aspires to achieve. And yet, each year this happens and goes appreciated by so few people. Why? Why don’t more people take an hour out of their day or week and just sit in a park and take it all in?

It, life, seems so simple.

As simple as fall comes and goes–as simple as the teetering of a leaf as it falls to the ground. 

I think best when sitting in nature. Usually when I have no pen or paper in arm’s reach of course. I love to sit. If I had a dog I would walk him everyday and take that time for myself, it would be a win win relationship.

I should be studying for midterms, I should be working on my internship applications, I should be contemplating about my next few years and where I will end up. But nope, I am just sitting here, on a park bench, writing this post. Why not? I took the morning for myself (well, mostly for the maintenance of my sanity during these hectic weeks ahead) and I feel happy. I look like that delusional person just smiling at their notebook by themselves as though they are writing the next “Old Man in the Sea” or something. Nah, just a little blog post…but nevertheless still writing.

I can’t picture a situation more fulfilling to me than this: sitting on a park bench on a fall morning with no worries and just a pen in hand. Maybe I should be a writer? Maybe I will be one day? Eh, who knows. Guess if you’re reading this then you may be able to tell more than I can.

My Advice…all learned the hard way

I want to compile a list of things that may seem obvious as good advice, but you don’t really understand until you take the risk against one of them and end up screwed over somehow or another.

1. Drink a glass of water between every alcoholic drink. Seriously, it will save you from feeling like death the next day.
2. Use gel inserts in your heels if you plan to be on your feet for more than a few minutes. They are cute but so not worth the unnecessary pain.
3. Read textbooks, articles, etc. that are “recommended” by professors. They often pull questions from them to weed out the dedicated students and the lazy ones.
4. Try to save money while you’re young and don’t have all the bills and payments that you will once you’re completely on your own.
5. Build your alcohol tolerance before you try to go shot for shot with some upperclassman at a party.
6. Travel. Or at least try to be worldly; whether via reading or watching tv programs about other places. Everything in business is so globalized nowadays, to think you don’t need to know or care about other places is just ignorant.
7. Avoid shopping at outlet malls when there is a potential for a thunderstorm. It ruins the experience.
8. Take advantage of free stuff whenever, where ever. Free stuff is great.
9. Do something crazy every so often. You won’t feel like you have lived and done things to fulfill your happiness if you don’t just take a chance. Dye your hair or go bungee jumping (I wouldn’t-I am scared of heights) but sometimes you have to do it just to say you did it.
10. Never date your best friend. When it ends, you lose a huge part of your life. The pain of the loss is enough to feel like you should never love again. Trust me. And think you’re certain it will work out…well get off your high horse.
11. Watch new movies. I like repeatedly watching movies from my favorites list, but you have to branch out and stay on the bandwagon of pop culture.
12. Get a goodreads account.
13. Take advantage of napping while you can. One day you’ll have to grow up and won’t have that luxury any longer.
14. Write in a journal. You may want to look back on your memories one day..
15. Take bubble baths after a long day. There is nothing more relaxing than sitting in a warm bathtub and being at ease.

I’m sure I could go on and on, but I am tired and a little hungover so I think I will just go back to sleep. As always, thanks for reading.

-Yours truly

25 Things You Should Know Before Dating Me

Everyone has their little quirks…. I won’t lie that I have some (okay, a lot more than 25) but for anyone’s sheer entertainment–you must be bored if you’re actually reading my blog, so yay for your boredom!– I have decided to take a bold leap and list 25 of my quirks. All have been oh so graciously pointed out to me by close friends and/or family members of mine. Enjoy….

1. I cannot sleep without socks on. (Exception: being beligerently under the influence- I am just happy that I wake up without vomit on me, socks aren’t a worry at that point)
2. I hiccup…. A lot. Like maybe chronic hiccups status.
3. I will read a text and completely forget to respond. Don’t be offended, I often lose my phone around my room or house as well.
4. I am a cheap date. (i.e. one glass of wine and I am buzzed)
5. I bite my nails incessantly.
6. I like to watch every episode of a TV series, in sequence. Multiple times.
7. I like to brag about whatever book I am currently indulging in…. At least act like you’re interested.
8. I dress up whenever I go out somewhere. I like to look my best. Unless I am just hanging out at home, then yoga pants, fuzzy slippers & a sweatshirt it is.
9. I wear sundresses on any day that the weather permits. Dresses are my favorite type of clothing. Deal with it.
10. I like social media….a lot.
11. Day dates are my favorite. But sunsets are the most romantic thing to build a date around (in my opinion).
12. I am very thoughtful, sometimes almost too much, and I get hurt when I feel it hasn’t been noticed or appreciated.
13. I buy books for presents. Sorry, it’s just my thing.
14. I HATE peanut butter. Unless it is in a reese’s cup, you won’t see me eating it.
15. Elle Woods is a role model. Do not argue this with me. Ever.
16. I like to shop when I am upset, so take me to a book store to make my day better.
17. I sleep with Frank, my stuffed pug, every night. So letting a new cuddle buddy into my life when the position is filled is sort of a big deal. Don’t take it for granted.
18. I like cookie dough & brownie batter WAY more than cookies or brownies. Let me lick the bowl, that’s the best part!
19. I love to cook! If I offer, then let me take the reins and prepare yourself for something special.
20. I can’t come up with romantic things too quickly… I get nervous under pressure.
21. I can spell really well. Ever since getting second place in the spelling bee in 4th grade. (bitter disappointment…lost to the word “benign”)
22. I smile when I lie. I am a terrible liar but that gives it away in case you aren’t a human lie detector like my dad.
23. I love thunderstorms, but I can’t fall asleep alone during them. (like right now, so I’m writing this)
24. I have wanderlust. I want to see the world one day. And maybe, if you’re lucky, I will invite you along.
25. Pugs are the cutest dogs on earth. If you disagree then you wasted your time learning about me because you won’t be dating me. But seriously…

Well, I suppose I just wait for the jokes to start rolling in about my weirdness… Hope you enjoyed this late-night writing tidbit on my life. Thanks for reading
-Yours truly

My Dark Movie-Going Experience

Like many people across the country, and the world, I partook in the viewing of the highly anticipated “The Dark Knight Rises” film this weekend. I love and often prefer to go to midnight showings of films (Harry Potter for every single one–hell yes) because it is the most commonly when the crazy, animated fans are out to indulge in a 2-3 hour escape into the surreal world of a favorite film.

As everyone should know, there was a tragedy in Aurora on Thursday evening at a midnight premiere of TDKR. Twelve killed and fifty-nine others injured. The crazy thing is…the theater is only a ten minute drive from where I am staying in Colorado with a friend. Crazier thing…. I was going to go to that theater for the premiere with Amanda, but had prior promises to see it with another friend on Friday since he worked early and didn’t want to be too tired for work on Friday. I was dealt an extremely lucky hand this week; I avoided a terrible situation, and I have been praying for and sympathizing with those involved in the shooting.

I am lucky.

I rarely quote non-authors in my blog, but I experienced something that was too overwhelming to ignore. President Obama issued a statement Friday morning from Florida about life being fragile… Well I have been taking my days for granted. I could very well have been one of the injured or killed persons in the shooting, but I wasn’t. And I wasn’t because I am lucky and I am meant for more in my lifetime. I am a fresh 20 years of age, nothing far enough to have gotten where I would like to be or change the world somehow. I feel motivated. This act of fate seriously altered a switch in my mind.

I saw TDKR this evening and couldn’t relax or focus the whole time. I was clenching my fists, holding my breath at every gunshot sound-terrified that it wasn’t just from the movie, and scrutinizing every fidget by a person in the audience. I enjoyed the movie very much, I just couldn’t keep my head clear of terrorizing thoughts. All I knew was that I escaped once, who knows if I could be so lucky less than 24 hours later.

I can say honestly that I do not want to see a movie in theatres for a while. I was not comfortable at all and I fear the paranoia will only continue to grow. I know it may seem silly to some of those who read this, but if you think about how close you could’ve been to being one of those victims, victims’ friend, or victims’ loved ones then you are sure to understand.

I woke up to about 5 missed calls at 5 am on Friday. They were from my parents and when I answered I could sense the relief in their voices. I was told about the shooting at that point and didn’t sleep but one more house before awaking from a nightmare. I watched the breaking news on ABC 7 news, 9 news, and CNN for 6 hours straight. I sat with a constant refresh on my social media to see the latest updates. I was scared beyond belief at the incident. I had an influx of texts & tweets from out-of-state friends to make sure I wasn’t affected.

It felt like Columbine all over, and I was only in elementary school at that point- I did not truly understand what happened because of my age. But now, it hit me like a piano falling from the sky. The stomach ache I felt with every witness interview haunted me throughout my whole day and movie viewing. It could’ve been me. And it wasn’t. Why? I need to work on making that disappear. I don’t want to have to ask why I was so lucky, I want to show myself exactly why it wasn’t my fate to be in that theatre.

I may be overreacting in some of your opinions, honestly, I don’t care. Life is fragile and we have to make of it what we can. I have a purpose and I am more motivated than ever to pinpoint it.

My (rest of) Summer Bucket List

I know I should’ve made this two months ago when my summer started, but it didn’t officially begin until June 30. I finished my internship and I am shipping off to Colorado for the next few weeks….so it is time I make a list of things I HAVE to do during my time in mile high altitude. Some will be cliché, but deal with it people. It is my birthday & I have had a few glasses of wine to celebrate.

1. Watch the sunset AND a sunrise at daniel’s park.
2. Consume way way way too many fries and frosties.
3. Go for a run around my old neighborhood.
4. Visit my high school and (not be too) nostalgic about graduating and being old.
5. Spend a whole day in a bookstore and/or cafe.
6. Cook a whole meal from scratch.
7. Lay in bed/on the couch for a movie marathon for a whole day.
8. See any movie that interests me at midnight on opening night. (THE DARK NIGHT RISES!)
9. Read 4 more books….of a somewhat recognized literary merit.
10. Workout everyday for a week.
11. Do hot yoga.
12. Do hot yoga a few more times.
13. Blow my money on clothes/purses/food just because.
14. Create my own sangria recipe.
15. Play a game of baseball with my best friend and his brother. (and win…maybe)
16. Go on a road trip (a mini one counts).
17. Waste a date in Ikea by playing house.
18. Catch fireflies at night.
19. Go boating.
20. Draw with sidewalk chalk.
21. Go to a baseball game (Rockies anyone?).
22. Play mini golf!!!
23. Sleep on a hammock.
24. Play on a playground at night. (I LOVE to swing)
25. Visit an amusement park. (Six Flags?)

Let’s see if I can do it… I shall try my darndest!

-Yours truly

Your 20s, Relationships, and Katy Perry

Every singer’s album tells a story; it may be about newfound love, a broken heart, a recent sexcapade, a night of drinking & dancing in the club, or a rocking chair on a beach.

It is interesting to see patterns though…. Taylor Swift is either deeply in love or whining about a man who ended things with her (probably because she is too whiny), Miley Cyrus is rebelling from her other personality as a Disney star (you never leave peoples’ hearts as that Disney character once you’re it), and Katy Perry is singing about kissing  (girls or guys, who knows) or feeling like a teen in love for the first time or wide awake from realizing her marriage was tainted by a sex addiction.

I have found (and yes, experienced as well) that Katy Perry’s sequence of songs follow a pattern similar to that of a 20-somethings in-and-out of the relationship world/single world.

1. We are single, we are independent, we are kissing girls (and liking it). Party all night & dancing on tables (sounds like Paris all over again….)

2. Then we have to deal with the confusion of the up & down emotions of our newfound love interest, so we end things (and always regret it) and run away for a good time in Vegas…only to wake up having no memory of our night besides glitter & a headache, still thinking of that person making it all that much worse.

3. We come back and beg for them back, and things become better than life has ever been before, it is that teenage dream of true love. We are in such an amazing mood that the whole world is lit by fireworks! Everyone is amazing and you are so inspired, why not spread the love in your heart. You’re drinking your friday nights away, waking up in a disarray but no hesitation to do it again.

4. BAM. Your “true love” is the one that got away. You will mourn for a while but within the year will cycle back to that first step of being a happy single, just dancing on tabletops and wearing cherry lipstick and whatnot.

 

Love in our 20-somethings may be complicated, but maybe it is possible to hit step 3 and get lucky enough to stay there….

Well, I should probably get back to work, it is the second to last day of my internship & I wrote this in procrastination of my report….oops.

Thanks for reading, as always.

-Yours truly